I always expected me to be me

I went through 13 grades of the same endocrine
but for me the pill 
never took
I would never be the sane
and so many others
took this kayak
to fruition
but mine sank

So here I am 
a 55 year old Eskimo
still using this racist
term for
flesh eaters
as part of my dread,

Life is as tough as facing
a counger when your twenty one and
nervous
and she is forty 
and Georges

What you learn over time
is that humans
like to be humans
and mostly 
ignore
the buzz 
from above

There are a lot of great theories
but most are scientific
not denying my instinct
to fuck the one
I love